Let the Running Begin!

Well, I’ve started my running routine, and it feels so good to really be exercising again!!! I am going to try to use this blog to keep track of my runs and the progress I’m making!

Tuesday, May 29
Walked 30 minutes at mall
Walked 2 laps around neighborhood with Chris
Ran 60 secs/ Walked 90 secs for 11 minutes (then legs started itching)

Thursday, May 31
Walked 5 minutes, warm – up
Ran 60 secs/Walked 90 secs for 20 minutes
Walked 5 minutes, cool down
20 stair push-ups
25 situps
25 R/L side crunches
30 butt raises – haha (don’t know what to call them)
20 lower abs
Stretch

Goal: Saturday do the same
Monday begin challenge self more!

New Outlook

Well, it is Memorial Day, and Chris and I have been having a fun time hanging out today, fixing up the house with adorable screen doors, an american flag, and a tomato plant. I finally have some time to update our webpage.

Well, let me see where I left off… we have been waiting two months. This was supposed to be the month that Chris and I would begin trying. However, we went ahead and tried the first month (in April). For some reason or another, that month had so much hope wrapped up in it because it was our 3 year anniversary and we had so much hope because of my surgery.

When I got my period, I really went through a really tough week. Chris was out of town at a conference, and I was home by myself. I also found out one of my college roomates, Kristen, was having twins. That was harder than I can even describe. However, this week was an amazing turning point for me. I was able to talk to a lady from my church, Lisa, about her struggle with infertility and she now has 3 beautiful girls. She understood – someone who truly undestood for the first time. She shared that a lot of her struggle was about wanting this dream in her timing vs. God’s timing. The folllowing Sunday, Dr. Cox spoke on jealousy – whoa…. that split my heart in two! Which needed to be done! That night Chris also gave me some loving advice that I have been trying to live out in the past 2 months… First, he said that I needed to change my focus – to run after my Lord and Savior with the passion that I’ve been running after pregnancy with. He also said that I needed to place him second, right after God. My focus did get messed up by trying. I wanted to get pregnant more than anything! I needed to change that, and I have! Truly!

I have been falling in love with Jesus more and more as well as falling in love with my husband. Pregnancy is not controlling my life anymore – I am controlling my life! As far as trying goes, I’m taking each month at a time. I’ve decided I’m going to start running again. I found this cool website that will help me train to run 3 miles… http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_3/181.shtml. I’m doing Weight Watchers, and just caring for my health as well as enjoying this sweet time with Chris. I don’t know when a baby is in the Lord’s plans for us, but I do believe that He does have that blessing for us one day. Right now, I want to live every day fully and appreciate life with no children right now. I know there will still be hard times – like when I find out other friends are pregnant. However, I trust. I give thanks.

I don’t wanna’ spend my life jaded
Waitin’ to wake up one day and find
That I’ve let all these years go by
Wasted

Oh I don’t wanna’ keep on wishing, missin’
The still of the morning’ the color of the night
I ain’t spending no more time
Wasted

– Carrie Underwood

My life is my own, a blessing that I am responsible for living for Christ – His empty vessel. I will keep you posted on all that He is doing in our lives.

All my love –
Mary Lindsey

Hope Restored…

Hope has been restored like it was before Chris and I ever started trying to get pregnant. The first few months of trying, there was excitement and hope. Then, the worry and doubts began to set in after we had been trying for a while with no success. Being driven emotionally by your cycle is misery! Up and down every month.

I went to the doctor about a week and a half ago. He told us all went well in the surgery, and the tests weren’t abnormal – yea! He said I needed to wait to have one good period before we could start trying again, but said it would be wise to wait two. We will wait two.

Last Thursday I started my first period after surgery- I never have been this excited about getting it since I was 12! I even did a little dance! Another great thing was I didn’t have cramps! I was a little achy feeling, but not anything like the cramps I used to have! Dr. Wiist said that the polyps were probaby causing my cramps, and now that it is gone = no cramps. Hoo Rae!

So, all this hoping and the excitement of possibility PLUS the wonderful weather has launched me into spring cleaning mode. I completely cleaned out what will be the nursery. If you saw this room before you would not think it could be cleaned out in one day, but I did it! Now, I am able to go by that room and invision a nursery one day. I am able to stop by it to kneel and ask the Lord to fill our lives with the blessing of children.

I am believing God for His miracle in His time. Pray for me to guard my heart, and to not think baby thoughts too much.

~ ML

Recovery

Well, its the day after my surgery, and everything went great! I had the best nurses and definitely the best doctor! Yesterday morning I woke up around 8:30 continually reminding myself not drink anything! Mom and I changed the sheets on my bed so they could be fresh and clean when I came back home to crash into the bed. I then took a shower in which I scrubbed myself dry! Yuck – I hate having to bath to the point where your skin feels like it is going to crack! After my shower, I got ready and hopped in the car with Mom and Chris. We left around 10:00. It was such a pretty day outside! I was sort of nervous, but not too bad.

We arrived at the hospital and checked in. I only had to wait a little while before my nurse, John, came to get me. I then had to change into a gown, socks, and blue bonnet. He then did all the pre-op stuff like checking my temp, blood pressure, etc. Then he had to put the IV in, which I was so scared of, but he was awesome! I couldn’t feel it at all! I felt like such a big girl because I didn’t have mom or chris back there to hold my hand 🙂 (Yes I am 25!) After that, John went and got Mom and Chris to come sit with me while I was having “brunch” (aka the first 1/2 of my IV bag). As I was waiting, the nurse brought me the best heated blankets ever! I told mom I sort of felt like I was being pampered!

While we were waiting in the tiniest room ever, Dr. Frank Cox, my pastor, and Alvin Hobgood, the executive pastor, from North Metro came by to see me and pray with me. It was so sweet to have them come by! I really wasn’t expecting them, so it was a nice comfort to see them! Then, Jo, Chris’ mom came by and she got to sit with us in the tiny room until they came to get me.

Around 12:15, Dr. Wiist, my OB/Gyn, came in to talk to me and answer any questions I had. He is the most precious doctor, and reminds me of the way my grandfather would have been a doctor. He prayed with me before he took me back, which made me, mom, and jo cry! They took me back and kept joking about how they were going to give me a spa treatment. I got up on the operating table, and then they told me they were giving me some sleepy drugs that may make my arm tingle. I tried to lay there with my eyes open for as long as I could. Its so weird because I don’t even remember falling asleep.

When I woke up in the recovery area, Chris, Mom, and Jo were there trying to feed me graham crackers and ginger ale. They told me I kept saying, “I’m so happy” ” I feel so good” and that I kept asking if Dr. Wiist was coming by to see me. I was so warm and cozy when I woke up with out an ounce of pain or nausea! Yeah! Thank you Jesus!

Dr. Wiist informed the Fam, that he found a 2cm polyp in my uterus, and another small one (size of his thumb nail) by the entrance to the left fallopian tube. He got both of them out and sent them to the lab. Hopefully, they won’t grow back – some women are prone to these things. Please pray with me that these won’t come back!

After I finished all my crackers, I was wheeled out to the car. I went right back to sleep and I vaguely remember driving through Chik-fil-A. I got home, ate some of my chicken sandwich, and went upstairs and crawled right in my fresh and clean, cozy bed. I slept until 7pm that night! Drugs are wonderful! My doctor is wonderful, and hopefully there will be a little baby soon! My follow up appointment is in about 3 weeks.. I’ll keep you posted.

Night Before Surgery

Well, this is the night before my surgery. I am sort of nervous, but not really about the surgery. More about pre- and post- surgery than the actual surgery. There are so many rules I have to follow tomorrow. My surgery isn’t until 12, but I can’t eat or drink anything past midnigt tonight. That is sort of nervie to me. My how I depend on food!

I also have a cold which is clogging my left nostril. I hope this won’t effect the surgery at all. AND I hope the drainage doesn’t make me sick afterwards!

Well, to anyone who reads this, please say a prayer for me tonight and tomorrow… 2/27 and 2/28. I trust the Lord. He hears me.

I sought the LORD, and He answered me and delivered me from all my fears. Psalm 34:4

Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not be afraid, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, I will help you. I will hold onto you with my Righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10

For God has not given us a spirit of fearfulness, but one of power, love, and sound judgement. 2 Timothy 1:7

The LORD is my strength and my song, He has become my salvation. Psalm 118:14