November 4, 2006
Three more months… this is like clock work! ☺ I just went through another tough time when I found out Johnny (my brother) and Meghan (his wife) are pregnant with their second. That was a very tough night! A night when I was mad at God, when I doubted trusting Him. But His faithfulness is so much greater than my weaknesses. He sent me encouragement through my Mom and Lori Beth Horton. My life can’t be changed by anything I do, but by truly being content and living my life that God has given me to the fullest.
Well, my life has changed. No, I’m not pregnant, but I am content. I am becoming the best wife that I can be. I am focusing on work and starting to focus on getting control of my health. Not that it is out of control. I think this is going to be a whole new challenge for me. I look forward to starting it and changing our lives.
Last week I had a test done… a hysterosalpingiogram – or something like that. It came out fine. Much more hope! Trusting. It’s a daily choice. Something that I can get shaky about when I think about the here and now. But, when I think about my Maker, that He knew each day of my life before I was even created, He knows the same for my children. I have no reason to worry.
I am truly trusting God for what lies in the future.