If faith can move the mountains
Let the Mountains move
We come with expectation
We’re waiting here for You
I’m Waiting here for You
– Waiting Here For You Lyrics
Yes, Lord, we wait and ask for you to work through these words, this story, for your glory.
Saturday would have been my due date with our baby boy… Blanton Baby #6! To celebrate this his little life, I will begin where I left off and tell you the story of Asa David. I pray your heart and life will be changed through his. I know that mine has been.
Well, as you can see I last wrote in January with the idea I would post a weekly update on our family. Yay New Year’s resolutions! Another resolution of mine was to begin counseling – which I started on January 3. I had planned on keeping up this blog even though my counselors had encouraged me to get off all social media to focus on God’s voice. (Best advice ever!) I did get off all social media – more on that to come, but wanted to keep a little history of our family this year. That is until I was halted in my tracks by some news. I found out I was pregnant on January 21.
I don’t even know how to write this next part. I cannot even tell you the shock I felt when I realized I was ‘late.’ I grabbed a pregnancy test at Target while my heart was pounding out of my chest. I also grabbed other lady supplies because I was certain I was just late. We were preventing pregnancy. There were no ‘oopsies’! I think I calculated while standing in Target that Chris had the flu the week we could have gotten pregnant! TMI? I’m just letting you know how this was NOT on my radar AT ALL! We were saying goodbye to the baby phase (and when the baby phase was as intense as ours was, you happily wave it goodbye!!!) I was getting ready to start potty training Haven the next weekend! I was ready to grow WITH our family, not for it to grow bigger. I had worked hard at losing the baby weight, and honestly I wasn’t ready for my body to go through all of those changes again. Anyway, I think you get at least a tiny glimpse of the shock I was feeling. I drove home and didn’t even unload the groceries. My kids were with my mom and I took the test. Yep. Pregnant.
I called Chris while shaking and crying and told him the news. He was so happy! I did NOT expect that. God’s grace. Another baby to add to our family! Our kids would be so excited! Chris could see all the blessings!
My friend Christine called right when I hung up with Chris. She was so encouraging while listening to me hyperventilate and cry. She,too, could see all the blessings this baby would bring!
I was still shaking thinking about all the difficulties that I thought we would have to pass through – morning sickness, taking care of 5 kids while pregnant, cooking, homeschool, a newborn, no sleep, exhaustion, etc etc etc. That was ALL I could see. The difficult completely had my head and heart in a fog. I was incredibly overwhelmed.
God certainly knew my heart – I openly voiced it to Him in prayer. I honestly was shocked at my own heart. The baby lover, the one who cried and begged and prayed for just one baby for her whole life (and really diligently for two years), did not want to be pregnant. Nope. I was done.
If you know our story, we have identical triplet boys that are 6. I was delighted when I found out I was pregnant with triplets almost 7 years ago! But after moving my heart out of the baby phase – wow, this was really different and very difficult.
Yet God was still so faithful through my ugly and uncontrollable feelings. I was overcome with all the emotions for many weeks. But God’s faithfulness didn’t change.
Counseling was such a gift. Just having started it two weeks before, He knew I would need Beth and Holly to walk me through this and to provide Biblical wisdom to guide me through these stormy seas.
This is just the beginning of this story. I decided to write it for a couple of reasons. I want my children to know that God is still a God Of miracles. I pray this story will glorify God and make His name great. I hope it encourages you in ways that are bigger than I can dream. I hope it shows you when you know Jesus, there is NOTHING to fear. I also hope it shows that every life makes an impact on this world- no matter the length.
And, last little note, if you have ever followed me before and my story series have bottomed out (ahem…5 children, survival.) Don’t worry- this entire series is already written and scheduled to be posted! 😉
Part two coming soon…