I have been out of the blogging world for the last 2 weeks. I was having a tough time emotionally… all is well physically, though! A little background…
When I found out we were having triplets, I was so incredibly overwhelmed. I like to try to figure things out and wrap my mind around different challenges that come our way, but this was waaaaayyy too big for me. What I could wrap my mind around was being pregnant. I had done that before. After some research, I knew our first *big* goal was getting to 24 weeks.
I have loved these babies from the beginning, but I was also keeping my heart guarded. I knew that *anything* could happen at any point before 24 weeks, and we might lose one or all of the babies. At 24 weeks, the babies are viable and the doctors will fight to save them if they are born. Before then, they are just not physically developed enough for doctors to intervene. (Sorry, I know this is kind of depressing… hang on, it gets much better!) So, for the last 6 months, I’ve been focused on getting to this point and doing what I could to stay pregnant.
As I approached 24 weeks, I started feeling that anxiety rise up with in me again about having triplets. It is still hard to imagine and figure out how we are going to do this. Even though we have “sets of 3” things all over the house, it is weird to think we will have 3 babies. all. at. once. I know that we will do it, but trying to process it is pretty difficult. So, I have been doing a lot of thinking, planning, and seeking the Lord over the past 2 weeks and just haven’t felt like blogging.
After today, I have had a breath of fresh air – a confirmation from the Lord that HE is the one at work. (How crazy for me to doubt!) I’m just a little (well, rapidly growing) vessel for Him to use. And He promises He will not give us more that we can handle. It may not always seem like we can handle it, but bending our knees, admitting our weakness, seeking the Lord, pouring out our hearts is how we find the strength to move on.
So, why today was so amazing. We went to the doctor! And I am just amazed at our God. First off, my weight gain is going great, my blood pressure is perfect, there is no protein in my urine (gross yes… but this is such good news b/c my kidneys are working and supporting mama and the 3 boys). Then, we went to the ultrasound….
Baby A is head down. He is the most active one.. always kicking me like crazy. Well, do you know that he weighed in at 1 lb. 13 oz!!!! He is in the 65 percentile on a single baby’s chart!!! HUGE!
Baby B is breech. This baby likes to move after I eat about anything. He wasn’t too far behind his brother, and weighed in at 1 lb. 12 oz!!! He is in the 59th percentile!
Baby C is also breech. He is in a weird position, laying diagonal across my belly. He weighed in at 1 lb. 10 oz.!!! And he is in the 51st percentile!
We also saw all of them moving and kicking. At one point while we were trying to get pictures of them, Baby A started drinking. At a certain point in pregnancy, babies start practicing swallowing, and we could see Baby A opening and closing his mouth, as well as sticking out his tongue. It was amazing.
Then, I had my appointment with my doctor, and everything ‘down below’ is closed up tight! This is such wonderful news because I have been having more contractions – irregular, but more of them. And, contractions can start preparing your body for delivering a baby. Not yet though!!!
Once again, Jesus displayed his power to us by showing us he is watching these boys, is growing them himself, and is sustaining and causing my body to thrive! In some ways this pregnancy has been easier than my pregnancy with Harper. I have nothing to worry about… not even about how we will do this or raise them. He will give us the strength and ability to do this.
He is good! Do not doubt Him. There was a time when I questioned if Jesus even saw my heartache. He does. He did. He sees yours. Speak to Him. He is listening and wants to answer you… maybe not in the way you want Him to answer, but trust me when I say that His answer and His way is SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH better than our ways! When you get to know the heart of God, there is nothing to fear!
Thank you for your prayers, I will try to update more! Next Goal: 28 weeks… May 28th (only 23 days away)
Oh, and here is a belly pic. I’m now measuring at 40 weeks. Wowza!